It's too hard.

I hate being forced into independence. All I want is for my family to actually do what I need. I'm tired of going above and beyond to fulfill their needs. I took a day and half off of work last week to help my sister move, I fuckin' flew to calgary and drove back with her. Even though she knew that I was moving this weekend she went ahead and booked viewings of new homes where they're wanting to buy the same day that I'm moving. So even though she's 2 hours away from me now, she's not coming to be with me. She doesn't get it. Everyone who has been encouraging me to move out of dad's house for the past 5 years is not around me right now, will not be with me when I actually load the boxes into the moving truck and when I take them into my new home.

Dad's around but he doesn't really want me to move. And frankly he's just annoying. Making stupid comments all of hte time. Giving me un-necessary information. And my brother is working all weekend, and I wouldn't really want him around anyways but still, he hasn't had anything to do with anything important and me for 8 years. The last important thing that my sister was present for in my life was my confirmation when I was 15 years old. That was 11.5 years ago. In the mean time I've gone to both of their weddings, plus helped my sister move 4 times, went to my sister's baby's first birthday party (which was really a party for my sister), etc.

I just feel like I'm having to do this all on my own. I don't have any real support from my family. I have friends that are helping me out tomorow but its not the same as my immediate family, they could care less if I ever move out of my dad's house plus I'm moving away from them.

I just feel so shitty and sad right now. Know one understands what it's like for me. Right now I just want to give up.