Pros & Cons

The countdown is on. The stupid fucking co-worker has 3 days left of her contract, hopefully I can get through these last days without hurting her.

Everything is so stressful right now with the church. They want me to sign a new contract when they don't even know what the job description is going to be, they are sadly mistaken if they think I'm going to do that. I'm not even sure if I want to work there. The past 2 weeks in particular this has been really draining and anything but life giving. Since I haven't been in control over this bullshit at the church, I've turned to controlling other things...again (food and scratching). I've mostly come to realise this bad behaviour the day following or in counselling, etc.

So here are the pros & cons that I can think of this morning:
Pros

1. I know the people at First so well they are church family to me
2. I can be there for the youth and families in the congregation
3. I live very close to First
4. It would be less of a change, which is easier for me to cope with
5. I can minsiter with them during this challenging time
6. It makes sense for me to stay and help evaluate the programs in youth and family ministry since I coordinate them

Cons

1. This will hurt me financially, with a decrease of 46% of pay and no cheques during the summer
2. I don't know what the job description will be
3. They have unrealistic expectations
4. I'm not sure if youth ministry will ever grow in that church
5. I'm not sure if youth associated with First are underserved and need the programs at the church
6. Members of First have made me feel like shit in the past 2 months
7. I don't think I can make a difference that they are looking for
8. If I work for another church, I would probably have to move