Need A Lifeguard? We Have One that Walks On Water!

As seen on the roadside sign for Abbotsford Christian Assembly. It's a good reminder for me to read this kind of thing, especially after the day I had on Tuesday. It wasn't like a really awful bad day, it was just challenging. Roadside theology isn't always something that sits right with me depending on what the sign is saying. The sinking feeling comes and goes, but I hadn't remembered to think of Jesus as a lifeguard, who did infact walk on water. This whole journey through darkness and depression I tried to see the Christ light ahead of me, and friends told me it was there during the times I couldn't see it. But how awesome is it to think of Jesus walking out across the troubled waters that I'm sinking in to hold onto me and not let me completely sink, and eventually pull me out to the service.

A few days ago I went to the beach with a friend and her kids. We played in the sand and walked in the ocean. I walked in the ocean...the water was only upto my knees, but still I was in the ocean. I can't remember the last time I was so fearless to stand that far in the water. And I didn't freak out. And I've been staying at this house that overlooks the ocean for the past month, every day I spend lots of time looking at the ocean and the USA on the other side of the bay. 2 years ago when I first visited my friends at this house I could hardly sit on the porch facing the water, it was too scarey for me.

At one point during Bootcamp I began thinking to myself I'm just going to quit and I won't go on the hike at the end of summer. But then Kelly the instructor encouraged me to keep going and helped me make it through the hill running. Unfortunately on Wed. night Kelly was in a car accident and has a serious concusion, I'm hoping that she'll be back on Monday at bootcamp. Please pray for her healing, she is an inspiration to so many people in the bootcamp program and at Mission Community Services where she works with the preschool/daycare programs.

This afternoon I had a real low moment, abdominal pain, crying, the whole melt down bit. It didn't last very long but it really affected my day. I just didn't get everything done as soon as I had wanted today. It was a feeling of being alone, sad, unwanted, and left out. I can't figure out what brought it on and it hasn't completley gone away yet. Basically all of the friends that I would phone to distract me or make me feel a bit better are away right now or they weren't home. It just shows to go how I can be fine for days, and then all of a sudden I get depressed.