A Stormy Day

My day went from feeling OK, to feeling like worthless shit, to feeling remotely happy, to feeling completely stressed out, to feeling absolutely pissed off. It was almost like one of those ferry rides where it looks like it will be a calm ride, but then they announce for everyone to sit down, and the waves crash up along the side of the boat, and after your sailing they cancel the next ones because of a freakish storm. It litterally turned into a day from hell. For the most part in hindsight I know that I over-reacted to lots of things. But I can't help the way I feel. I just have to put up with it and deal with it. I was so angry at a meeting that I was picturing arrowheads darting into the eyes of one of the womyn at the meeting. It was awful. With so much work on my to do lists for both jobs I just feel like I can't get it all done, yet at the same time I so excited about all of the things that I get to do...I love my work, honestly I really enjoy it. I just get stressed out by it.

And now it's 1:16am and I'm totally awake. So I'll be starting my Friday tired and drained. Which I know will lower the chances of it being a good day. That's just what happens.